UPDATE: January 2013
I think it’s about time I’ve updated this page.
I went on a search for the real me and I can safely say I looked just about everywhere.
I looked down the road of adultery but luckily did a u-turn because that’s so not me, can’t do it.
I looked in friends faces and found some really good ones but also lost some along the line.
I looked in Wine and Vodka bottles, boy that was one hell of a search, only thing I found there is the realisation that I don’t like losing control.
And I looked deep down in my soul.
Some of what I’ve found I liked, some I didn’t and I dear say I still haven’t found what I am looking for but … i’m getting there ☺
So, feel free to keep joining me in my search, have a laugh with or about me, give me feedback, if you want, and see where my journey takes me this year.
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February 2009
I don´t know much about myself which is why I created this blog.
I am trying to find out what life is all about, not just as a wife, mother, employee and friend but the real me.
There are so many things going on in my life, so many thoughts in my head, mostly unsaid, and I long for a place to let it all out.
So here it is, chaotic, crazy, sad and sometimes happy words, all written from the heart and uncensored. Hopefully this is the start of a journey to find some answers
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crazybunny66 
amen.
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🙂
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Thanks for the “like” on my blog post! I’m looking forward to reading what you have here. 🙂
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You´re welcome, I just had another look at your blog – love it :-), keep it up!
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Thanks for the like on my blog and quoting stuff I wrote – I never expected anyone to do that! [smiling a lot right now]
While there are really no shortcuts in life I believe the closest you can get with regards to ‘finding out who you are’ is through meditation (imho). I’d read all the books, tried doing all the work by reading shed loads of psychology and had still hit a brick wall.
Really – I’d read the lot and was/am a walking encyclopaedia of ‘self help’ knowledge regards psychology, goal achievement and so on and so forth. My brother even got to the point where he’d joke about my ‘self help library’ however it was ALL theoretical…
Meditating is the practical…
I’d have laughed my ass off a year ago if someone had told me I’d be doing this – picture a 200lb guy who likes lifting weights – lol. But I can honestly say after only 10 months I’ve got to the bottom of my hopes, fears, insecurities and vices to the point where I’m very aware of who I am as a person. I’ve accepted ‘me’ and it turns out I’m pretty cool 😉
So while it might be hard poking at the dark and damp corners of your mind with a stick and a flashlight (yes, there’s some scary mad s**t down there) in the end it’s worth the pain, horror and frustration. Now the real job of living an authentic life in the present can begin without all the subconscious junk rising up to pull you down. Meditation is for warrior samurai bad-asses and being one of those is AWESOME…
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Nice to know I´ve put a smile on your face 🙂
Meditation? I have not tried it yet, but I wouldn´t mind giving it a go.
I dare say I have a good idea of where I am heading, or rather where I went wrong in the past, it´s just rather difficult to rectify past errors because there is always so much at stake.
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Some things in the past cannot (or possibly shouldn’t) be rectified and we can only hope to learn from them what we need to know. What I’m doing is called vipassana meditation which translates as ‘seeing things as they really are’ 😉 Anyway, I’ll stop banging on about that and wish you all the best! 😀
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I´ll google it, thanks for the tip 🙂 and all the best to you, too.
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You’re off to a great start, Crazybunny! xo
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That was me, by the way, theanatomyofanaffair, who said you’re off to a good start!
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Glad you put that one straight, it´s rather difficult to reply to “someone” 😉
Am I off.. I don´t know, I certainly hope so, bit scared, too.
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Ah, sounds familiar! This is my year for discovering me too! Good luck in your journey!
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Thanks for the “like” on my post, glad I looked at your blog……can’t wait to read more!
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You´re welcome, the feeling is mutual 🙂
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[…] comes and goes into my mind. Today I got support from the post “kids and facebook”. The blogger’s concern is about making or not a facebook profile to under aged users. (credit: […]
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blogging is good to think and evaluate and share. Good luck, and welcome…
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Thanks 🙂 and yep, I’m evaluating my shortcomings and sharing my c…ups 😉 na, seriously, I love it!!
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Ops, forgot to think about the thinking…;-)
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Hi!! Thanks for dropping by my blog! Sorry to hear about your fridge blowing up. I don’t have one here. Have a good evening with the vodka!!
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Oh, and all you want to know about yourself is there waiting. It discloses itself like a book opening at the right page at the right time. Sometimes you gotta figure out which sentence or word or even picture is meant….anyway, the journey of life is a mysterious one that unravels for the serious seekers!! This much I do know as I am not a seeker. I ‘found’ a long time ago! Wish you well 🙂
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Hi! I’ve nominated you for the Liebster blog award – you can check out the post here
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I was awarded on a cold and rainy day with this fabulous Sunshine Award. I hope it brings you some warm fuzzies too. Sadly, unlike everyone else I can’t figure out to make the link work so you have to copy and paste.
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Well you succeeded here because the link is working 🙂 thank you so much for the award, I crave sunshine !! 🙂
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I am so glad. I only just worked out how to add the award picture to my blog and then only because Shaun at Praying for One Day wrote me instructions.
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Trust me, we’ve all been there and once you think you’ve sussed it, along comes another hurdle to overcome (gravatar springs to mind 😉 )
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Keep him happy, we might need him in the future 😉
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Damn right.
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AnElephantCant help thinking
This is some crazy stuff you have created
You may be slightly mad
But please don’t be sad
AnElephant thinks sanity is vastly overrated
He also suspects you may be a Scot, which kinda justifies most things.
So hugs, and not in a bad way.
Any friend of Mik is a friend of AnElephant.
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AnElephantCant came to visit a rabbit
I sure hope he’ll make it a habbit
He liked what he saw
Storries about the old ma
Although in one he has been mistaken
The reference to the Scotish relation
The bunny’s been born ‘bread German
T’s the husband who’s been Glaswegian
As for the joint friend
A fine Scotish blend
That’s as far as I go
Can’t rhyme any mo
Lol – it was fun while it lasted, albeit not even half as good as yours, thanks for the visit xxx
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AnElephantCant speak very good German
When he greets you it sounds like a sneeze
When he’s in Deutschland
With phrase book in hand
He says Ich spreche nur Schottisch
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And see today’s post for more absolute linguistic rubbish:
http://anelephantcant.me/2013/04/30/european-in-the-dark-here/
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Hi – I have nominated your for The Liebster Award, – for writing inspiring posts and to inspire you to write more posts in the future. Just visit this post for the steps! :). – Irene
http://sevenhundredfifty.wordpress.com/2013/05/17/717-the-liebster-blog-award/
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Hi, thank you so much, I really appreciate it 🙂 I will respond asap !! x
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You’re welcome 🙂
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