Life,as I know it, is gone, forever.
Twice, in one week, has she threatened to kill me.
I had to tell my kids that they can not go to see her any more.
She’d done a runner and came back, on her conditions only. I wish she’d stay away for good.
I am not allowed to enter the house, nor is my brother.
My father is caught in the middle, after his stroke and 80 years old, he wants to believe her, wants to believe that magically everything will be alright, still does not know the depths of it all.

My mum is an internet addict!! She stops at nothing to get her kick.
The net is her life, sick b*#•** sending her mails, pictures and vice versa.
She lies, she screams, she hates us.. Because we know. She blames my dad, me, my brother, her life, boring people just not herself.
My perfect childhood, my loving family, we were so close.. All gone.
All that’s left is fear, a nightmare I can not wake up from.
Fear that one day, soon, she’ll flip, she’ll lose it if my dad dares to say something she disagrees with.
Hate, pure hatred in her eyes. And I am helplessly watching from the distance, unable to prevent it as she is caught in the web.



I am your average wife,mother,friend,employee....a bit lost in my world, a bit crazy at times but always good for a laugh - I think ;-)

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  1. Hugs to you, CB xxx


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