I can not sleep

I’ve got to get up again in less than three hours and I’m wide awake, shit!!

My family member is online again, against (our) better judgement :-(.

I’d never ever thought that anything like this could happen, not in my wildest nightmares.

Let’s call him/her SB for ease of reference. SB has spent hours on the net. At first I didn’t think much of it, just a bit of harmless fun. Then Mr CB and I noticed that the room light was always on, no matter what time we passed the house… Still, just a bit of harmless fun, right?

Now I know that SB has been chatting, God knows who with, I know some e-mail adresses, not like mine though with propper name or initials, bogus ones.

I do know what their privat parts look like, the pictures I was shown at least, didn’t get to see all the pics to “spare” my feelings but what I saw was enough!!

And do you think there is any reasoning with SB? Age, family, friends, safety even? SB does not give a shit!!

It is driving me nuts, it is turning into an obsession, what is SB up to now? I can access SB’s e-mail account and I am ashamed to admit it, I have. Not that it makes any difference, SB has long started deleting any mails sent/received, phone numbers dialed, long before I even suspected that something was wrong. I currently know of at least two more e-mail accounts, but can’t and don’t want to even attempt to crack them -or do I??

And yes, feel free to tell me that it’s none of my business, SB being an adult and all that… Been there, done that, doesn’t work!! It is my business as it destroys me, my family, my life, and no doubt, sooner or later my mental and physical health. Too many people are involved, too many people are getting hurt and eventually, someone will die as a direct or indirect cause of this. And I lie here, unable to sleep, unable to stop or prevent it.

(= ‘.’=) sent via my iPhone,
(“) _ (“)excuse any typos


I am your average wife,mother,friend,employee....a bit lost in my world, a bit crazy at times but always good for a laugh - I think ;-)

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2 comments on “I can not sleep
  1. Well, I don’t like it really, but just want you to know I’ve read it. x

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