two comments on my post feeling-low got me thinking today.
Nowan Zen of notlostjustweird.com cheered me up tremendously, made me laugh out loud, just what I needed and CraftyChica27 of lotsofmumbojumbo.wordpress.com and runningwithoutsocks of runningwithoutsocks.wordpress.com kind comments made me feel understood, that I am not alone in the way I am feeling sometimes. First of all thanks to all three of you, very much appreciated.
I think I am coming to terms with the fact that this is it, life does not get any better, any easier or any happier than the way it is now. I am beginning to realize that I am quite lucky in life, despite my ups and downs. Maybe my “search for myself” was down to going through the change of life (at 45, how sad is that!!!!!).
Maybe it is down to the current economic climate, everyone seems to be feeling low.
Or maybe it´s just me, who knows?
Fact is, life as it is will not get any better, try as I might, so I am concentrating on the good things, rather than the downers.
I have a husband who loves me, who is a dab hand in the kitchen, good with our boys and very understanding when it comes to my “mad moments” such as getting barred from the dental surgery or getting p… with friends and colleagues alike, sporting the bruises afterwards ;-).
I have clever, good-looking and healthy children who, admittedly, drive me nuts sometimes, who have A.D.D. which makes it even more difficult sometimes but nevertheless, I love them to bits.
I have friends who willingly put up with me and my antics, currently waiting for bestes pal and family to come for coffee and cake (yummy ;-)).
I have a job and a pay rise to look forward to.
The sun is shining, my shoulders are sunburned from spending a full day at the football pitch yesterday (5th out of 20. is not bad for my youngest and his team, is it? ;-))
And I am determined to ignore the fact that I will never ever have enough money in the bank to stop worrying about it, no matter how hard we work.
I am totally determined to ignore the “pay by… letter of the tax office as they have decided that since we are not entitled to child benefit for my eldest, they might as well claim back the past two years contributions to housing benefits (God only knows what one has to do with the other).
Who gives a toss? I have objected, patiently awaiting the outcome and if we have to pay then so be it – life goes on.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I am beginning to “find myself” again, the me who always used to be happy and smiling.
Am I making sense? Probably not but it feels good anyway 🙂
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