hm, should I start with..
I´m ill, I´ve got a rotten cold, smacked me in the face with no warning whatsoever, I hate being ill but still dragged myself into work, of course.
or should I start with…
I did it!!!!! I got the job, got word back today, via e-mail, and I am going over again tomorrow to finalize the details, discuss wage, possible company car (not sure about this, yet)
I have no idea how I managed to pull this one off, I have been told in the past that I can sell myself well but I did not expect this!!
I guess I am taking a gamble here, it´s a much smaller firm, not as high tech, certainly much smaller office but who gives a toss about stuff like this, I don´t, I am just glad that I might be able to have a life besides work again, soon.
Still, I feel for crying when I think about it, stupid I know and probably due to the fact that I have to start all over again, not knowing what I am letting myself in for but I think the biggest worry is having to tell … no, not my boss, … my customer. I´ve established a really good working relationship with these guys and I will miss them – a lot!! (I will miss my colleagues, too, of course but I still get to see them since we are all more or less from the same town)
I dread to think what´s going to happen when I finish working there, not because I am Mrs Perfect, the Best or whatever but because I grew into the workload, I know the guys, the products, the deadlines and the customs ins and outs, my colleagues don´t and despite my efforts and pleas to get them involved, they´ve always taken the attitude of – no need, you´re here. So, soon enough, I won´t be here anymore and I know that this is going to cause one hell of a problem for colleagues and customers alike.
Then again, why should I care?? Sometimes I wonder if I am trying to talk myself out of the new job, that would be suicide more like. I guess I am just scared of the unknown, so to speak 😉